Trying in the Bush

The last week has been crazy in our house.  Dh, O's parents came up for a visit and summer school officially started.  Life here is all about community, and besides the personal changes I have started finding acceptance in the community, finally!  Apparently being here a year and living here over the summer starts people thinking that maybe you really do want to be here.  They are right, we have no intentions of moving again in the near future.  Is life hard here, in some way definitely, in others, not so much.  We don't have the pressures that life in the lower 48 have, everyone is a lot more laid back about most things.  On the downside you can't run to the store for anything, so you have to always plan ahead and shop accordingly, or in our case if you are trying for a baby, budget accordingly.  We not only have to plan on fees for the clinic, we also have to budget for plane flights, hotel costs, eating out and that adds a lot to the expense of trying to have a baby in the Bush. 
I digress though, amidst the chaos of company, school, and general life (being accepted means being invited to do really cool things like help cut up fish) we finally got a call from the fertility clinic.  They received all of our paperwork and we could set up our first appointment.  It's official I see the doctor on August 4th at 2 p.m.!!! Yeah!  I am tired of waiting to get started and ready to actually be in the middle of a different kind of chaos.  We look to the appointment with a mixture of excitement and fear.  I know the roller coaster that is waiting, and yet I have so much hope that this time it's going to end in something really amazing, all signs point towards this being our time to get a Big Fat Positive (here out referred to as the elusive BFP).  I am praying and visualizing and working hard to make it happen.  I have been exercising (ok so not for the last week I failed there) and have been losing weight, focusing on getting as healthy as possible.  My cycles have for the first time since I was 16 been regular for six months now.. I have to believe it has to do with all the work I've put in.  So here we go, are you ready to ride the coaster with us?  All aboard! I'm certain it will be bumpy and scary, and exciting, and all will end with a huge smile on our face!